Work was crazy. I came home exhausted but I still made dinner and stuck to my points values. I need to clean something kind of fierce, but I feel like it's going to get put off another few days.... one day I'll be on top of everything. I stayed on plan yesterday and today (I still plan to eat some frozen banana bites in dark chocolate for 2 points and some grapes after my walk). I'm anxious to see if I lose weight even though I feel like I'm eating a lot with all the fruit. If I don't, I'm going to ask my leader if I should be counting the fruit I'm eating. I guess we'll see at weigh in on Thursday.
Bentley is currently eating his puppy ice cream and I'm trying to let my food digest before going out to walk/run. I'm very tired, but all I have left to do when we get back is pay bills and hit the hay.
I've been pretty hungry today in spurts, right now (after dinner) I'm pretty full though. Here's kind of a little run down of hunger levels:
6:30am - Wake up - Sorta hungry
7:30am - Made smoothie, which I drank over the course of an hour and a half on my drive to work
10am - Snack time, ate a plum. Kinda hungry, not crazy hungry.
12pm - Ready for lunch. Ate my planned lunch and was feeling good after. Not stuffed, satisfied.
2pm - Famished. Trying to wait until 3pm because I know I won't be home until 6:30pm
3pm - DYING. Ate 1/2 cup of pistachios, still hungry after, but tolerable.
5pm - Famished again... now I have to drive home and can't eat ANYTHING until dinner is DONE
7:30pm - FINALLY eating dinner (2 Fajitas and 3/4 cup FF Refried Beans). VERY FULL.
8:23pm - Currently -- VERY FULL. Not sure how I'm going for a walk atm... trying to digest but feeling pretty awful.
I drank 101 ounces of water so far today, not bad, but I'd still like to get another 20 ounces or so in before bed.
Well I guess I better get going on that walk, Bentley is getting impatient.
xoxo,
Melissa
Monday, June 22, 2015
Sunday, June 21, 2015
Hands up for the Weekend
Well it's Sunday morning. Yesterday, Matt and I went out to dinner and had ice cream and went to the movies. I used up just THREE of my bonus points. I made it a point to always choose the healthiest options at each place we went. I didn't "cheat" and have soda or anything. I had the mini-ice cream (which I REALLY regretted later -- I'm lactose intolerant and not having milk for 2 weeks then eating ice cream caused me to be nauseous for like an hour and almost miss the movie).
Today we have a lot going on. I'm making the grocery list when I finish typing this blog and we have a day of shopping, cleaning, and food prep ahead of us. I've planned out my week in advance and don't plan to use any of my remaining Weekly Bonus points. I know they are there for me to use when I need them, but I want to keep that to a minimum if possible. My leader at Weight Watchers was saying I could set up my account to use "Activity Points" first and I think I may do that. I would like to eat what I earn instead of what I have given to me if I do want to go over.
I've also realized MyFitnessPal has a lot larger database when it comes to their food list. There are a lot of things missing from WW's (especially in the restaurant area).
Well I know today is a rather short one, but there's tons to do and I still gotta make the list so we can go to the grocery store.
xoxo,
Mel
Today we have a lot going on. I'm making the grocery list when I finish typing this blog and we have a day of shopping, cleaning, and food prep ahead of us. I've planned out my week in advance and don't plan to use any of my remaining Weekly Bonus points. I know they are there for me to use when I need them, but I want to keep that to a minimum if possible. My leader at Weight Watchers was saying I could set up my account to use "Activity Points" first and I think I may do that. I would like to eat what I earn instead of what I have given to me if I do want to go over.
I've also realized MyFitnessPal has a lot larger database when it comes to their food list. There are a lot of things missing from WW's (especially in the restaurant area).
Well I know today is a rather short one, but there's tons to do and I still gotta make the list so we can go to the grocery store.
xoxo,
Mel
Friday, June 19, 2015
Hesitant to Blog
So after many, many years of saying that I'm going to get on this weight loss and really change myself and my life (and sometimes sticking to it for a while), I've decided to start Weight Watchers. I'm not hopeful, or determined, but I've just decided that this is who I am now.
My entire life I have been able to get anything I wanted by setting goals and working my ass off until I reach them, but the weight loss has been the thing that has NEVER been attainable for me, not really. I have lost a little bit a few times, but never been where or who I want to be. Recently, I've noticed that I've become a quitter in all of my pursuits in life. I've become lazy and content to stay the person I am, even though I'm terribly unhappy. I have let my depression consume me and make me angry and bitter. It's hard to believe this is the person I have become. I think that part of it is that I am carrying an EXTRA PERSON around. I want to shed this weight because I think of it as the depression and stress and struggle living inside of me. If I can take it off, I will be happier, healthier, and enjoy my life.
I've started blogs like this so many times. I have tried and failed so many times. I have had the reasons to become healthy, but my laziness and love of eating have always won. It has trumped everything else. It has been my comfort, my reward, my relaxation, my cure for boredom, my happiness. It has also been my struggle, my shame, my depression, my pain, and my stress. I am in horrible shape to the point I can't walk up a flight of stairs without gasping for air, 125 pounds overweight, in excruciating pain to the point I can't bend over to pick things up off of the floor, and I have severe depression. I am 28 years old. How will I ever make it to 40? I can't even imagine.
I know, logically, I cannot continue to live my life the way I have the last 10 years, with the scale steadily climbing and me laying on the couch watching television. I have to make a change, for me, for my future. I want children. I couldn't even carry them during pregnancy at my current weight. I'd be on bedrest half way through without question.
So, Weight Watchers. I'm going to take this slow. I'm not going to crazy overwhelm myself. I'm going to stick to my points per day and become more active. I'm going to stop binging and using food as a crutch. I'm going to work on me. For me. For my family. For my future. I'm not going to look back on this time in 6 months and say "If only I would have stuck to it." In six months from now I'm going to look back and say "Look what I've done." I'm going to be proud of me.
I want to blog about it. I want to record my journey. I want to remember where I've come from and WHY I'm never going to be back here. I'm hesitant to blog, I'm hesitant to even tell people about Weight Watchers because of my many, many attempts and my many, many failures. But I'm trying to remember that this is about me. At the end of the day, no one will care if I fail, no one will even care that I tried, but I will. And this is for me.
xoxo,
Mel
My entire life I have been able to get anything I wanted by setting goals and working my ass off until I reach them, but the weight loss has been the thing that has NEVER been attainable for me, not really. I have lost a little bit a few times, but never been where or who I want to be. Recently, I've noticed that I've become a quitter in all of my pursuits in life. I've become lazy and content to stay the person I am, even though I'm terribly unhappy. I have let my depression consume me and make me angry and bitter. It's hard to believe this is the person I have become. I think that part of it is that I am carrying an EXTRA PERSON around. I want to shed this weight because I think of it as the depression and stress and struggle living inside of me. If I can take it off, I will be happier, healthier, and enjoy my life.
I've started blogs like this so many times. I have tried and failed so many times. I have had the reasons to become healthy, but my laziness and love of eating have always won. It has trumped everything else. It has been my comfort, my reward, my relaxation, my cure for boredom, my happiness. It has also been my struggle, my shame, my depression, my pain, and my stress. I am in horrible shape to the point I can't walk up a flight of stairs without gasping for air, 125 pounds overweight, in excruciating pain to the point I can't bend over to pick things up off of the floor, and I have severe depression. I am 28 years old. How will I ever make it to 40? I can't even imagine.
I know, logically, I cannot continue to live my life the way I have the last 10 years, with the scale steadily climbing and me laying on the couch watching television. I have to make a change, for me, for my future. I want children. I couldn't even carry them during pregnancy at my current weight. I'd be on bedrest half way through without question.
So, Weight Watchers. I'm going to take this slow. I'm not going to crazy overwhelm myself. I'm going to stick to my points per day and become more active. I'm going to stop binging and using food as a crutch. I'm going to work on me. For me. For my family. For my future. I'm not going to look back on this time in 6 months and say "If only I would have stuck to it." In six months from now I'm going to look back and say "Look what I've done." I'm going to be proud of me.
I want to blog about it. I want to record my journey. I want to remember where I've come from and WHY I'm never going to be back here. I'm hesitant to blog, I'm hesitant to even tell people about Weight Watchers because of my many, many attempts and my many, many failures. But I'm trying to remember that this is about me. At the end of the day, no one will care if I fail, no one will even care that I tried, but I will. And this is for me.
xoxo,
Mel
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