I know it's been a while since I've posted. I have been completely out of sorts as of late. While I've been working out with my personal trainer twice a week my diet has been utter shit. I've been depressed and I haven't been motivated OR determined to do anything other than try and gather myself up just to get through the day to day. I don't know if it was my cousin's death that tipped my depression over the edge or if it was just something that has been waiting in the wings for a while. What I do know is that I'm tired of letting it control my life. I have goals, I have ambition, and I am going to gather myself up this last time and I am going to forge ahead. I am not going to give these excuses or thoughts another second of my time. I'm sick of wallowing in them and doing nothing to find my way out of it. I know what I want out of life, I am a hard and dedicated worker so it is time to go and get it. All of it. Starting today.
