Couch to 5k - Day One

So I only made it 16 minutes into Day One before I called it quits. I then walked another .25 of a mile and went back to my apartment. I am literally dripping sweat and in desperate need of a shower. I may not have finished but I'm proud of myself. I went further than I thought I could and WAY further than I thought I would. I think this is a great stepping stone. I know its going to take time and I don't want to over exert myself.

I'm posting pics for comparison. Heads up, avert thine eyes. This pic was taken today at 283.1 pounds. I have none from 298, but that's probably for the best...

With my fingers crossed, my hard work, and my new found determination, I will NEVER see 283.1 again.

Reasons and Rewards

When I was on my last vacation I did not take one photograph of myself, I was uncomfortable on every ride I went on, and there were things I couldn't do simply because of my weight. My weight makes me self-conscious, unhappy, and causes me to miss out on so many things in life. I want a baby. I want to be able to climb a flight of stairs without feeling like my lungs have collapsed. I am doing this so I will be able to enjoy life. 

Here are a list of my most compelling reasons and motivations:
•A baby
•I want my kids to be healthy, and I want to be a good role model
•A better sex life
•Going to HP World and Disney in February 2015
•Be able to walk around at Disney and Universal and walk around without DYING!
•Feeling better about myself/ Not being so self conscious
•Enjoy the moments I have with my friends, instead of worrying about how fat I look in the pictures they are taking
•Being able to keep up with everyone else




And here are the rewards I plan on giving myself at KEY weight losses:

I'm starting off with new workout clothes, shoes, and gear ($250)

275 – Elemental Nature Nail Package ($70) (only 8.5 pounds till this goal!!)

238 - Elemental Nature Massage. This is the halfway point to "Onederland" so it's a big deal! ($105)

199 – Caribbean Therapy Package from Sakora Spa (Massage, Facial, Manicure and Pedicure) ($180)

150 – Photo Shoot with Jessica!! New wardrobe at goal!!! ($250)


Motivated and Determined. Minor setbacks like my fitbit not recording and my weight not going down after the gym wont get me down. Not this time.

A little Disappointed

I'm bummed because I weighed myself this morning and after two days of working out (one walk at lunch and one gym session) I weigh the same as I did two days ago. Since I didn't lose anything at this "weigh-in" I'm going to try to go back to ONLY weighing myself on Mondays. I can't quite figure out what I did wrong or what caused me to not lose, I can only think it's because I went over the 1570 calories I'm allotted (though fitness pal said I could because I'd exercised). I'm going to try and stay under the budget number from now on because I think that is the issue. I'm not really sure.
:(

On another note -- I guess you have to wear the fitbit pretty snug because I went to the gym and worked my ass off for an hour and a half yesterday and when I got back in my car and updated it, it didn't even log ONE STEP. Of course, it also didn't log any active minutes or that I burned any calories either. It was just a bummer, and topped by the fact the scale didn't show it this morning either, doesn't make me WANT to go to the gym, that's for sure. :( I'm just going to power through it and pretend yesterday was a practice run and that I built some muscle lol. I'm going to go back this Thursday with Matt and I'll see what it's like then.

Guess I'd better go. I have to get to work so I can write a complaint and read 50 pages at some point before 6 today and I have Cognitive Therapy at lunch :( Wow can I not wait for graduation!

A new me, a new attitude

I feel so good about the choices I've been making these last few weeks. I know that if fueled by the numbers that have been dropping on the scale. I wish that I could see the changes I know are happening, but that part will come. I'm proud of myself. I know that 133.1 seems like quite a lot of weight to lose, but if you consider that in the last three weeks I have lost 15 pounds (Without exercise), it doesn't seem that bad. I mean I was at 148 to go when I started. The closer I get to the 125 mark, the more attainable it seems to feel. 

I went for a walk at lunch yesterday, and today after work (and physical therapy) I am going to the gym with my momma. I plan to hit the gym on Thursday too. I'm trying to amp up to go three to four times a week. I want to start out slowly and build. I have never felt so driven for weight loss before. That's why I feel THIS time will be different than every other time. I feel like I've got this whole new outlook on life. I wish I would have felt this way a year ago, before it was time for kids or Florida, but at least I feel this way now. I'm ready for the change. I am proud of myself. That alone is a pretty amazing feeling.