Binge

I worked hard all day yesterday to stay within my calorie budget, but when I got home last night a food binge hit like I haven't had in months and I ate so much. It was just like I couldn't stop. After dinner I had cereal, a banana, cheetos, popcorn, a fruit by the foot, and I just couldn't stop myself. I am so disappointed because I knew at the time I needed to stop, but I just couldn't. It has been a long time since I was that powerless against eating. Even though I knew I needed to stop, I just couldn't make myself. It seems like every time I get on the right track in my brain, something happens that I freak out and I binge or don't workout and ruin it.


BUT, today is a new day. I am focused and I am ready. I have another chance to make the right choices and I have every intention to do so. I am going to become the person I want to be in ever area of my life. I am my focus and I am worth it. Even though I have set backs, they will not define me. My determination defines me, my heart defines me, I define me. I'm letting yesterday stay in the past where it belongs and I am looking ahead to a brighter and better future, which is dependent on my today.


Sorry today is so philosophical, I'm just trying to come to grips with my mistakes, forgive myself, and move on. Tomorrow I will write of success.



Mel